I want to know what it feels like to wake up next to you on a rainy day.
I want to know what it feels like to miss your weight on the other side of the bed but know that you’re just downstairs making coffee.
I want to know what it feels like to kiss you when you’re sick.
I want to taste the first pancake you ever make. the first pie you’ll bake me.
I want to kiss coffee off your lips.
I want to go on long, pointless drives with you that end up with us at the movies or at white castle eating burgers or some shit.
I want to get drunk with you and play that shitty 50 states game.
I want you to fall asleep with your head on my shoulder.
I want to have kids with you.
cas. I want a life. a real life. a good one. with you.
I wish I could say this to you. I think about it every single time I see you.
which is why I try to stay away.
because it hurts to think about it.
cas..I love you. you nerd angel.